Over the past seven months it has become more and more important in my life to do God’s will for me. I have come to realize that I don’t know what is best in my life. That was some realization!
I have been a bit of a control freak for most of my life. I like being in control. It was one of the reasons I did so well as a Unit Manager at a hospital or the Outreach Coordinator for the state of Michigan.
Butterworth Hospital, Grand Rapids, MI
So giving up control is a daily struggle. Or is that a daily challenge?
I think it’s a little of both actually. . . somedays a struggle and others just a challenge.
But which ever it is I know that when God’s will is done the blessings are greater than I could have asked for or imagined.
My problem is that I want God’s will NOW, TODAY, IMMEDIATELY.
Did I mention that I have problem with patience?
I was talking to Megan the other day about this issue and she shared with me an email that her mentor shared with her several months ago:
. . . I don’t believe God reveals His will for our lives like we expect/want Him to. Rather, it’s a step by step, day by day process. He chooses to show up one step at time. I’m convinced that if He would have showed me all I have gone through since college when I was IN college, I would have been overwhelmed, scared, and thinking about running away! But, He shows us one day at time and gives grace for each step He asks us to take. He also prepares us little by little, so when it comes time to do the next thing in His will, we’re ready! Don’t focus so much on what God wants you to do a year from now. Focus on His will for your life TODAY, and then TOMORROW and be ready to listen and learn what He wants to show you.
My struggle is in the practice.